My journey

The love cries painfully without anyone beside her
I cry bitterly as she does
I make my heart confess my pain and my joy
I am not alone
I hope that anyone who cries would be cheered up
so the hope they hold could still burn.

For you who cry painfully without anyone beside you,
would you share your tears?
Stars are there to shine on you.
Their wonders remind you
to the one who ever told this world about its magic

For you in prison,
would you share your tears?
You admit that life in prison is the matter of mentally distress
and physically abuse can not be compared with misery within soul.

For you, who are at the verge of your awareness,
would you share your tears?
You hope that the miracle you have begun to build
would keep growing.

For you, who hang your life on your love,
would you share your tears?
You are reminded of how love once had brightened your nights and dreams.

For you, who keep your faith while God seems not care,
would you share your tears?
You have been in moments of doubting
that foolishness would likely to replace your hope and love.

When tears flow, ask the Lord to help endure the pain.
Openly bring your guilt and sincerely deliver your frailness unto his mercy.
Hopefully peace would flow into your heart.

YYDW

I often met with some children who try to get money on the streets. Most of them would make a song simply by using some bottle tops attached to a 20-centimeter-bar or by using an empty plastic bottle filled with sands. They would shake that tool and cite some lyrics from a popular song. Then I would hand them some money to fulfill their effort.

Not to mention, there would be some people give them foods or clothes. Furthermore, some would talk and try to find out about how they have been going through their days. As the response, they would give you a smile and they would show their grateful by simply saying thank you or look into your eyes. Some would talk if they feel you are kind enough to hear them speak. More to say, when you see them playing freely with their friends, perhaps you could feel their wonders.

However, there is a suggestion spreading out in the society. It tells people not to give them anything. This recommendation tries to urge the children to leave the streets in hope for a better life for them. What are you trying to say then? Are you saying that they can find a so-called noble way to get money? Are you trying to raise their awareness in order for them to go to a kind of a reserved place which can give them a living?

And do you think there will be a place for them to have education? For this one, you could argue, and I’m no doubt about that. Some people try to deliver education for them in many various ways. They give them scholarship. They educate them without any fee. They take them as their children and school them. Nevertheless, don’t kick them out of the streets. It is their living field to live and to get money. Some of them do go to school but later on they would be in the streets to make a living. Where else they can go, the world is turning into a place where cannibalism happens even in a place of worship.

It is true that there are a few people who abuse a group of them for money. These little children agree, as no choice they could have, to be used in such ways that people misjudge them for being so deceitful. Ouch, did you just say that they do have a choice? Tell me, in certain situation of theirs; where love betrayed, faith withered, and hope taken, would they conscious enough to alone uphold the values of morality?

Ah, one of them knocked my window again. His face hoping that I would care for maybe just a coin. Come around near me, I will open the window and let you see what you will have.

YYDW

You touch me
Like the sun touches the earth
Warm and very comfortable

You hold me
Like an orbit holds a planet
Slow but very sure

The feeling is impossible
Couldn’t be understood

Your skin stimulates mine
My blood flows faster
My brain goes out

Love,
Please don’t let your touch out of me
Let me have it every moment
I’m addicted to your touch
I’m very crazy to every touch I have

YYDW

Oleh: Blue808

Aku seorang ateis bertemu dengan seorang Tuhan. Ia duduk di salah satu sudut langit, menarik nafas panjang……

Berhujan air mata diriNya, memenuhi kolam yang terbuat dari rambut-rambut langit. DiriNya sudah berkali-kali dan tidak bosannya mencintai……Sakit dalam hatiNya berulang-ulang sampai sang Ayah tidak dapat menyembuhkanNya. Ia ingin orang yang dicintaiNya menoleh ke belakang, melihatNya, mempertimbangkan cintaNya, yang mungkin saja bertepuk sebelah tangan……

Melihat diriNya yang tertekan, aku berteriak……MengejekNya… kalau Ia sangat bodoh dan aku bertanya, bila selamanya orang itu tidak menoleh…bagaimana diriMu……Ia hanya tersenyum…Ia bilang, Ia akan meneteskan air mataNya sampai orang itu menoleh walaupun terjadi musim kemarau di kantung air mataNya.

Mendengar kata-kataNya, aku ingin sekali melepas jabatanku sebagai ateis. Di dalam hatiku selalu tersirat… Apa aku boleh menggantikan kedudukan orang tersebut untuk mencoba mencintaiMu.

Ingin kupeluk diriMu agar dapat mencium bau tubuhMu. Ingin juga diriku menciumMu supaya detak-detik di hatiku ini bersamaan bernafas denganMu. Itupun bila diriMu menerimaku.

Aku ingin masuk ke dalam hatiMu karena Ayah tidak dapat menyembuhkan…

Biarkan aku sebagai kekasih simpananMu menyembuhkanMu. Membuat diriMu tertawa, tidak lagi di sudut langit. Membuat hatiMu bersemai cinta… Dengan begitu ia akan membiusMu agar hatiMu mimpi indah…menari bersama cintaMu…menari dan berputar sampai kamu tertidur…

Aku orang awam yang berpendirian ateis akan pergi saat kamu benar-benar pulas dan terbius dalam mimpiku. Saat Kamu bangun, hati maupun kantung air mataMu tidak sakit maupun kering. Tidak lagi memenuhi kolam dengan air mataMu.

Dengan begitu, akupun tenang…karena kamu tidak akan pernah ingat akan aku. Dan akupun dapat menghibur diriku yang rindu akan wangi tubuhMu dengan membuka kembali cerita cinta aku dengan Kamu, menggunakan air mataku dan sedikit sulap serta mimpi yang membius hati……

These are my collections of the 12 gold saints from the movie of Saint Seiya