My journey

i looked for words to close 2008
in the middle of a party
in the middle of a crowd
in the night train
in a path to home
still couldn’t find them

i sighed
then the wind searched my heart
took out the wandering
and scatered it to the sky
then made picutres from it

look at the crowds
look at the christmas trees
look at the memories
they are saying many words
happiness, gratefulness, cares, and love

the wind continued to whispered
a voice that melt a distance
came into my heart
i felt so warm and tender

finally the wind took my soul and spirit
brought them to the throne of divine mercy
words came out from my heart,

Lord……thank you
for the love
for the faith
for the hope
for those who search your kingdom and the truth
for those who suffered in your name
for those to whom you are pleased
for family
for friends
for people
for foods and drinks
for animals and plants
for this world

Lord, when you come again
please just let me see your glory
thank you Lord

YYDW (with some words from Emmy)

when i saw him that night
something attracted me
a bright shone in his eyes
like a diamond

it is his tears
so icy like an icicle
i was wandering about the tears
what and for whom he was crying

then i came to him
i tried to let him aware of my presence
but he covered his face with his hands
……………

slowly, his cry stop
then he saw me
with eyes still wet
with lights reflected through his tears
i was caught silent

i wanted to ask, i said
for whom you cried
he then answered me,
i cried for my heart is so bitter
i cried for i want to give up
i have a hatred in my heart
i can’t help it anymore

like a thunder, i got angry
hey, wake up
life is never easy
why you want to waste it
i was shocked as i spoke out those words my self

the man shocked as well
he shouted back,
who are you shouted at me
who are you advising me
i don’t need your attention

a sudden electric trigger my emotion
but, it was not because i got angry
i unveil my identity
i am sent from above for you

the man doubtingly said,
you, a messenger from above?
i don’t believe you

why you don’t believe?

what make you think i would believe you?

i’ll let you think
why i was there everytime you cried
just now when you cried, you called me

me? called you?

deep inside your heat,
you don’t want to give up
yes, you called me
i am the enemy of giving up
i am the enemy of disbelieve

you… you know my heart
was you who always there everytime i cried
i did feel warm after i cried
but only if i cry

to point out
i was there, i am there
i was here, i am here
you feel my care
you will from now on can feel me

i thank God everytime i cry
but, why you said i can feel you from now on?

i’ll be there everytime you wish

how i would call you

ask and believe your heart
only with your heart
as long as your heart doesn’t turn around
i will be there
in your heart

Composed by: Darvian and Emmy

I don’t remember when did the last time i had a doll. Today, i bought this doll, white koala, so cute I like it. When i saw it, i was wandering if i could find another koala which was cuter that this. But, i couldn’t find it, so i bought this little white koala. I don’t know whether white koala really exist, but i like this doll This koala is for my beloved one. She will call me ‘white vian’ because of this white koala :p

YYDW

As i walk through that path, i would meet you for the first time. I would see you smile as i take your hands. I would say your name. Then, you gently hesitatingly would let my hands off from your hands, but i would hold your hands secure. Even, i would take your hands closer to my heart. You would feel how much i long to meet you.

You would ask about how i was doing. I would never been better than that moment. From that spot, we would make our first steps together. We would start making stories. We would start to journey our believe. I really want to believe that i love you.

My beloved one, please don’t let me off your heart. Even, we never met before, and never seen each other. I did feel doubt whether I just want to satisfy my ego. But, you……. merely you simply told me about merely me. I’m…. would you let me say that i love you

YYDW

i folded this kind of origami based on the diagram made by Charles Esseltine, and it is titled ‘Dragon in Flight’. The diagram can be found through this link

http://dev.origami.com/images_pdf/dragon_ce_25.pdf